You had to know that there would be moments, however flickering they are, in which I blame you for it all.
You had to realize that what you did sometimes leaves me feeling, unattractive, unmotivated, and unlovable. You had to see that your actions made those around you feel like walls were caving in on everything known to be true. You had to hear me in the back of your head, giving you advice like I always had. Guiding you right from wrong. You had to think when you told me, that this realization held the power to ruin me I, however, knew that you did your best and your intentions were never to hurt me. I realized, through it all, that you loved me...just differently than you'd been telling me for years. I saw how it all affected you too; how you struggled daily with the weight of your newly found life. I heard your pain, but realized it was no longer my job to guide you. I thought about everything we had gone through and I knew that only I had the power to let this dictate the direction of my story.
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Thetesa
5/5/2017 03:37:17 pm
You are beautiful....inside and out!
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