My last post was about my unapologetic happiness. And I am still so happy, but bad days still rear their ugly head sometimes and that's okay.
Yesterday was a bad day for me. I think it was a combination of things: I had worked 13 hours the day before, I hadn't been feeling well, and my emotions were getting the better of me. But the biggest unknown for me when I have a bad day is...how do I make it better? That's the dreaded question...right? My friends can tell when I have an off day, I'm just not myself. But I never quite know what I am going to need. A night in watching movies? A night out drinking with friends? Dinner and a movie? Wine in bed? That is the hardest part...I never know. Therefore, when I am asked what has gotten me down, I usually chalk it up to "a hard day at work" or "just not feeling right". Because in my anxiety ridden head - "there are still somedays when I hope I wake up and it's all just a dream" seems a tad too dramatic to say out loud. So I don't. I often struggle with not putting the burden on other people. I have had anxiety most my life, but after clawing myself out of some of the darkest moments in life...I still have a voice in my head telling me I should be okay all the time. And I am here to tell you...that is not the case. No matter what you've gone through in life, THERE WILL BE BAD DAYS. It is natural, it is expected, and it is okay. It's a hard lesson to learn and one that I am still learning. Keep on keepin' on, friends. Lean on those around you- they don't see it as a burden. They love you. Have bad days; embrace them and learn from them. All my love.
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Daddy
12/16/2017 06:01:43 am
Daily you are in my thoughts and prayers. Excellent reflection - embrace those bad days because it is only temporary. Love you. Dad
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